As a practitioner who assists others with healing on an energetic level, I practice and commit to being an open channel to the Divine. It is then that I am able to receive guidance so I know what to do and how I can be of service to clients, friends, and loved ones. Intuition and trusting myself to receive this sacred information for others is the key when facilitating healing.
Sometimes I forget that the same ‘rules’ apply to me, too. When I am not feeling well, experiencing physical or emotional symptoms of some sort, it is essential that I tune into the Divine and trust my intuition so that I can help myself.
When I have so much information about myself, it is often difficult to set aside old beliefs and see my own situation clearly. However, last night, I was proud that I was able to tune into guidance— for me. I am visiting family for a week and tend to wander away from healthy choices I have made as an adult concerning physical and emotional well-being. To make things easier, I eat what my mom has in the house and eat the special foods she enjoys making for me. I’ve gone through several years of explaining to her why I no longer eat certain foods. We usually go straight from the airport to the grocery store because food is a priority for mom, wanting to make sure I have what I need while I am here. The prices of the gluten free foods and organic fruits and vegetables I eat cause her great stress and angst. This time, as she has not been feeling well, I chose not to go down that road, so we skipped the trip to the grocery store.
I am discovering that while I am trying to save my mom from the stress related grocery store incident, my body is telling me that what I am putting in it is more important. Last night, I kept dreaming that I could not breathe. Several times I woke up in the middle of the night gasping for air. I realized that my throat was closing, as if I was experiencing an allergic reaction to something I ate. Well, the only allergies I have are to antibiotics and occasionally funny reactions to peanuts. Rather than getting scared, I decided to tune into my body and angels and intuitive guidance. I immediately heard, “It was the chicken I ate for dinner. It was not organic. Think of what is used while raising the animals for food that is not organic. Aaaaaah! Hormones and antibiotics!” Bingo! I took a benedryl, prayed that my airways cleared for safe breathing, gave myself Reiki, and fell asleep for the rest of the night.
Lessons learned:
#1 My health and well-being is more important than trying to control someone else’s level of stress-which has nothing to do with me in the first place. I love my mom but I also love being able to breathe. Even though it is only a week, food and emotional choices are a priority. So glad it is raining today so we can go to the grocery store for some healthy choices without missing outdoor time :).
#2 We love our family, try to protect them. I know. I also know that the wisdom to understand that some things cannot be changed or controlled, the serenity prayer, was written in regards to navigating family relationships.
Here’s to health, self, and the Serenity Prayer!